???

is there something wrong???
wanted to ask this question...
but im afraid to know what's wrong...

i want to be his favorite HELLO and his hardest GOODBYE.

dont tell me you love me if your not sincere.
for a lie that strong can ruin my life and bring on a new fear.
fear to be loved, fear to love ever again.
it can cause my fragile heart to break,tear and bend.

think of all in life that will be missed because of one small broken promise.
so when when i put all of my trust deep within you.

please dont tell me you LOVE ME, unless you truly do.

My heart was closed when you came in, dont walk off and leave it open.

why do i feel this way.
i feel so guilty and at the same time happy.
wanted to bring back that night and told him...
"oppurtunity knocks once so grab it"
"im happy for you..."
"dont worry i'll be alright"
"i assure you that i wont leave you"
but everything has been said and done.
hope it was not too late.

PUTANG INA MO!!!

Putang ina mo wala naman ako gusto sayo
Pero bakit…? Ikaw ang dahilan
Kung bakit ako bili ng bili ng lintik na pre-paid sa cellphone kong bulok.
Ikaw rin yung dahilan kung bakit pumupunta ako sa downtown
Kailangan ko pa magpaganda tuwing pupunta ako doon.

Putang ina mo!!!! Wala naman ako gusto sayo
Pero bakit di ko maalis sa isipan ko na minsan nanligaw ka sakin…
Sa cellphone nga lang…
Tapos non wala lang…
Pakiramdam ko tuloy yun ay tripings lang
Dahil halos ilang buwan hindi ka nagparamdam

Putang ina mo!!! Hindi ka naman ganun ka gwapo
Ehh.. isa kalang lalaking malakas appeal
Pagpumorma hiphop na bulok!!!
Mata mo parang manok
Walang ibang alam kaya utak mo bulok!!!

Pero putang ina mo!!! Bakit ako apektado?…
Sa birthday ko hindi mo ako binati
Sa best friend ko may picture msg. May kasama pang
“HAPPY B-DAY I LOVE YOU”

putang-ina mo!!!
Minsan nga lang tayo magkita
Hindi ka manlang nadadalang tumawa
Kahit konting ngipin hindi ko Makita
Nang malaman ko kahit kunti ikaw ay nakatawa
Habang nakikita kita

Putang ina mo!!!
Matutuwa sana ako na nakikita kita
Putang inang ugali mo!!! Galit kapa yata

Putang ina mo ayaw ng barkada ko sayo
Dahil sa putang inang ugali mo
Pero putang ina mahal parin kita

Oo sige.. kaibigan nalang tayo
Kaibigan madali mo ma-uto pag empty ang puso mo
Kaibigan malalambing mo kahit tripings lang ito
Putang ina mo talaga!!!

Pero bakit?
Hindo ko makalimutan ng minsan ng text ako
At reply mo “ang sweet mo”
Sinabi mo pa hindi parin ako nagbabago
At putang ina may kasama pang I LOVE YOU

Pero.. putang ina rin
Hindi ko makalimutan ng minsan sinabi ng pinsan mo
Gusto mo raw ako, kaya lang addict raw ako
Putang ina mo ang galing mo manhusga ng tao
Hindi ko alam kung pan-iinsulto ba yun o anu?

Putang ina mo!!! Wala naman ako gusto sayo
Pero bakit sa tuwi-tuwina na-iisip ko ang kaputang inahan mo sa akin?

…naalala ko ang balita na may iba ka na raw
halos dinamdam ko ito araw –araw
kaya nga ito ang sinulat ko imbes case study sa management ko
ngti-is ako kahit walang ilaw

putang ina mo!!! Bakit hindi ka magkagusto sa akin?
Ahh… alam ko na….!
Dahil ayaw mo sa akin at friend lang ang turing mo sa akin
Kaya wala akong gusto sayo lalong lalo na wala ako pakialam sayo!

Pero putang ina gusto parin kita,putang ina talaga ako!
Kasi gusto ko ang putang ina tulad mo!
Putang ina ka talaga!!! lalong lalo na mas PUTANG INA AKO!!!

=)

In the end we only regret chances we didn't take.The relationships we were scared to have and the decisions we waited to long to make there comes a time in your life when you realise who matters, who doesn't, who never did and who always will.

so happy!!! jan 23, 2011 11pm!!!
this what i've waited for 11 years!!!

1 month before VALENTINES DAY

Anu ang Valentines Day para sayo?

ibat iba ang tingin ng tao sa araw na ito
"isa lamang karaniwang araw"
"espesyal na araw para sa mahal ko"
"naku gastos lang yan"
"valentines day..ano yun?"
"holiday ba ngayon?"
pero bakit ganun...
karamihan na sagot ay hindi pabor para sa araw na ito..
single kasi.
tama diba?
siguro ang araw na ito...
siguro ang araw na ito ang nagpapa-alala sa akin na single ako
na loveless ako.
na hopeless romantic ako.
pero sa totoo lang
bitter lang toh hehehe
sakit ahhh
habang naglalakad ako...
nakaka-ingit yung may mga ka holding hands
yung may dalang bulaklak
yung kumain ng sabay sa resto.
yung magkadikit yung braso.
yung sweet magtinginan.
nakaka-ingit yung naka couple shirt.
sorry naman...
hanggang inggit lang ako..
single nga ehh.
sana pagdating nang araw na to may date na ako.
sana may special someone na ako.
sana may roses na ako.
may chocolates at teddy bears.
at may magsasabi sayong..
"HAPPY VALENTINES DAY"
"AND I LOVE YOU SO MUCH"
......

.......

I always tend to fall for that one guy who is out of reach,
but still close enough to make it hurt.

me....

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle.

i could be your worst girlfriend...

soon

ONE DAY I WILL BECOME SOMETHING AND MAKE MY PARENTS PROUD......

health problem

my period started last october 28,2010 and it went on for normal 5 days and stop for 1 week and its back again last nov.14 ,every day i always have this brown spotting and light bleeding (blood)... i dont feel any pain from the inside.

this is not my 1st time if you remember i posted a blog about brown discharge last april , ive also experience this brown spotting last month much worst because my spotting didnt stop the whole month of october.

anyone could help me? or just give small info bout this...


im really tired thinking. afraid having blood loss.

tounge tired...

lot of things to say...but id rather be silent.

VERBALLY ARMED

more interesting than before...

flip top!!!

BATAS BATAS BATAS
haters made him famous...

BROCK LESNAR

what do you know about brock lesnar?

Brock Lesnar was born on July 12, 1977, in Webster, SD. While a student at the University of Minnesota, he won the NCAA individual heavyweight wrestling championship in 2000. After graduation, he trained in the WWF's Ohio Valley Wrestling Facility. He is currently married to former WWE Diva Sable.



UFC Heavyweight Championship


•11/15/08 UFC 91 - beat Randy Couture via TKO (strikes) in Round 2

•7/11/09 UFC 100 - unified the UFC Heavyweight Championship when he beat Interim Champion Frank Mir via TKO (strikes) in round 2
3/27/10 UFC 111 - Shane Carwin beat Frank Mir to win the Interim Heavyweight Championship. Brock was stripped of the unified championship because missed time due to having diverticulitis.

•7/3/10 UFC 116 - unified the UFC Heavyweight Championship when he beat Shane Carwin via submission in round 2
10/23 UFC 121 - lost the UFC Heavyweight Championship to Cain Velasquez via TKO (strikes) in round 1

blame yourself airhead!

blah blah blah
blah blah blah
blah blah blah
blah blah blah
STOP HURTING ME!
COZ I DONT DESERVE THIS!

life is NOT fair! but it doesn't matter to me ;)
im happy and contented the things that i have...

updates...

busy with my final exams!
done with my two subjects...
quite busy coz lots of activities...
but despite of my busy schedule i still have time magmuni-muni hehe
my ritual ;)

-just watching the new release gadgets for 2010 i really love ipod nano but before saving money for ipod nano i have to save first for my glasses.

-lastweek my uncle on my mother side was admitted at st.pauls hospital because of mild stroke.

-last september my nephew was diagnos of hydrocephalus "water in the brain"

-recently my sister was diagnos of cerebral palsy

-my mom ---> neuritis and having an abnormal blood flow.

-right now my father is suffering back pain and sometimes he cant even move his legs, we dont know the reason cause laboratory results "NEGATIVE".

-me? ohhh pain in my heart hehhee joke! im just busy and dont have time mapaka emo =P

I DONT WANT TO GROW OLD WITH YOU...

cause i dont see myself being happy with you.
cause i dont trust you...and will never trust you.
just want to expect something worst.
and just want to set in my mind that you would always cheat and cheat and cheat.
you told me that you would never do those things you did in your past relationship.
that's a bunch of bull!

enough that i wont expect anything. dont want this relationship to grow. after all i really dont trust you... AIRHEAD!

WHY LIE???

just to give me peace of mind???
coz you dont want to hurt me?
coz you care?
though it pretty obvious you LYING!
im not that STUPID to believe in you ASSHOLE!

hate this feeling...

the feeling of being second best.
dont want to compare my self...
cause its like saying "BITTER!!!"

i feel alone right now.

got lots of friend but no one to talk, glad that i have my journal. were i can freely tell all my problems in life.
i don't have a friend that would be there for me every time i need them, glad i have GOD that would protect me.
i have family but cant feel their presence glad to have this gadgets coz I'm no longer longing for their love and care!

why would i care to those people who don't care me at all!!! SAHO!

im used being alone...

10-11-10

dont know if im special... coz he treat other girls just the way he treat me.

10-07-10

is so easy for you to say "I LOVE YOU"...
but why is it so hard for me to believe in you???

10-07-10

is so easy for you to say "I LOVE YOU"...
but why is it so hard for me to believe in you????

naive???

do they deserve this?
do i have to hurt them?
after i make them fall for me...
i left them for no reason...
why?
after what happen to me i think all guys really deserve what im doing!
every time i hurt them i thought i could see smile in my face...
but i was wrong!

they call me NAIVE...

this what my friend say:"kung galit ka sa kanya wag ka gumanti sa ibang tao inocente...kasi di nila kasalan ang ginawa ng X mo.at hindi lahat ng lalaki gaya ng X mo"

WTF!!!!!

forgot my serial #!!!!
now im just using trial version (anti-virus)
ohhhh sh!T!!!!
dont how to recover my old version???

trust- once broken you cannot restore it as before

all guys cheat!!!
they're not loyal
they're not faithful
they always flirt every time your not around.

i really find hard to trust and to love again

there's no such thing as MR.Right (admit it lyn)

im lost

yesterday was my special day but it turned out to be my worst day... feels like I'm alone i just stayed home after my exam cause I'm broke and I don't feel OK.

feels like i don't belong... feels like I'm all alone... I'm surrounded with friends,with my family but still I'm looking for happiness with someone. i go with him or him or him or him but I'm not that happy i don't know what I'm looking for.all i know there's a part of me that's missing.i try to find it to someone who's willing to give happiness, but the happiness is not enough.feels like I'm a LOST SOUL... with no direction... an empty one... its so hard living in this world na pinagkakasya ko lang sarili ko sa pagmamahal na kaya lang ibigay. para akong isang ulila.=(

hope i could be contented living all alone,hope one day i wake-up and accept everything.


now that I'm 25! my wish???"hope this would be my last birthday" cause I'm really sick and tired of being sick and tired.

natal day

adlaw han akon kapa-nga-nakan

yana an adlaw han akon katawo igwawaray waray ko it akon pag-istorya naK mga binuhat HINI NA ADLAW

................................
tungod han kapaso ngan sirak han adlaw ako inin nagmata. lumusad tikang ha kwarto dumiretso tikadto kusina ngan ini nagtimpla ako kape... han sige ako higop han kape gin abrihan ko an TV gindungan ko gihap pag-abri han akon "paa-bawbaw" or mas kilala ha "laptop" ngan inin ako nag "nawong libro".waray ko sabuta an oras ipangara-on na ngay-an hin pani-ngudto. lumusad ako ngan nag-abre hiN delata human ko ka-on bumalik ako pag "nawong libro" waray ko naliwat sabuta ORAS igpaniri-hapon na ngay-an. lumusad ako ngan ako nahulog pagmata ko sapit ko hi san pedro nakita ko na gamit niya nak "paa-bawbaw" ngan paghiling ko nag "nawong libro" hiya... nagstroke ako pagmata ko amo pala nak pakasabot na inop la ngay-an tanan adto....hehehe non-sense... BLAH BLAH BLAH

IF YOU CANT LOVE ME ATLEAST DONT HURT ME

it takes a thousand sweet efforts to build a great relationship,yet one fatal error can destroy everything you have started.

maybe i was expecting so much from him and now I'm disappointed after what i have found out.

its not time to have arguments because he's suffering tonsillitis


"angan2 maupay kala! nga angab ka! kay kastigado ka"

try

i tried...
...
...
...
...
...
...
is all i can say... =(

would somebody help me???

...
I'm busy searching herbal products or medicines for my mom ;(

pls help me..help me pray for my mom...
thanks

im back ;)

its been a while since my last blog post. =D
been busy this past few months.
busy preparing and organizing our law night and we make things possible despite "mga libak ha am" partly disappointed but in the end happy because they were able to appreciate ;)
been busy also bout our prelims cramming in reading and catching up our lessons. our last examination was labor the hec with ?????! where did he get that fuckin questions! out of this world! and just realize the problem was not on me but on our professor.
also busy last June fiesta lots of activities..and im always drunk ;)
and speaking of being drunk just yesterday about 3:30am at astrodome!!!! i guess that would be my most embarrassing moment for the rest of my life! and would be absent for a couple of days or week just to heal the wounds.

final game

a breath taking game watching 4th quarter..

at the end lakers won!

but still i love celtics!

...well... well ...well...

We lose health to make money & lose money to restore health. In thinking anxiously of the future, we forget the present. We live as if we will never die & we die as if we have never lived. Life is precious, live it day after day with contentment and lasting satisfaction. Life is beautiful, even if it is complicated. Life is gift, take it as it comes and appreciate it. After all, we only have one life to live.

just the way it is

jovit baldivino just won the PGT!!!
i knew it! i really knew it!
i love him the way he sing the charisma and most especially the voice

AND just laSt week COMELEC proclaim the new president and vice president
hmmmm glad that the candidates i voted was the one who won election

but so disappointed on senators!
HEC! why did they proclaim senators just week after the election
when canvassing is not yet done!
TINUYAW!

the hell who vote LITO LAPID! and BONG REVILLA they're all idiots!

PACMAN planning going to school and LANI MERCADO to learn more bout their jobs!
what!? pagarugaru for that position!
next time pls. dont run for any position if you dont have any idea about LAW.
heler! nasa house of representatives ka kaya!
kun kelan na elect axa pag skwela! DRE TUHAY!

im sick`

what a bad day...

wasn't able to sleep last night
nag-aga nalang nagsiga la ghap mata ko
whaaa... napalurong!

i count 100 sheeps,,read books (the best sleeping pills)
whew 5;30am siga la ghap mata ko wahhhh

hays its all because of my cough,flu,colds!

06-12-10

as usual I'm always late...
di manla na appreciate effort ko pagdali
and usual ako lage sumsuman

from ate joy fiesta punta kami carnaval ;D
wasn't able to ride sea dragon
kc hurri cane pla lifung na ulo...

hahays... so excited sa sea dragon
cge lang halaba pa June =D

picture will e uploaded sa multiply SOON!

and pls. check out my twitter account for my schedule hehe

totaly broke

no money for school entrance

but i was able to buy new slippers!

yehey just bought it a while a ago!

stroke si mother hehehe

love it! blehh

pissed off

i dont know what's wrong with me
i get easily arritated... being impatience
ohhh what's happening to me right now

dont want to talk to anybody
-->hangover i guess

i enjoyed last night and looking forward for our next gimik

sea dragon hope it would come true!!!! whew!

bad news and good news

2pm my classmate texted me "6 lang pumasa sa --- subj"

i lose my hope deep inside of me im telling to my self "accept it...you didn't make it"
but about 4:23 a friend of mine MYRA texted me "wow,pasar ka!"

hays feel so relieve...i made it! yes!

the bad news... 95% of not going to law school this year.

i texted my aunt asking for my income as of MAY 2010 (need money for enrolment)
but she just tell me that to stop going to law school.
im totaly broke right now =(

its 3:34am cant sleep,
here i am right now battling alone....

to do nothing is the way to be nothing

summer is over!

schedule wasn't follow =(

im suppose to review civil code and crim law but i was too busy playing in facebook playing plants vs. zombie busy watching anime ... gimiks...movie marathon ... tekken PSX. =(i didn't notice im just wasting my time.

seems like im out of motivation.

lawyer is my dream since grade school but i guess this kind of attitude dont deserve to become a lawyer...

if its meant to be, it will be

its not destiny that determines love, it is choice. our so -called destiny is a lie. relationship last long not because they're destined to last..

relationship last long because two brave people made a choice-to keep it, to fight for it and to work for it...

meanwhile other relationship fail not because they're destined to fail... they failed because one of the two or both made the choice to set each other free.

sometimes you need break-up so test if you're meant for each other. sometimes we need to get hurt to learn lesson.

i fight with all i can, i hold on too much, i choose to stay, i cry too much, and believe that there's still hope...

but im hoping for too much thats why i just have to let go because its hurting me.

hahays LYN-LYN GET TIRED...cause its not all the time that i hold on.

i never get tired of loving...but im tired of waiting when i know im just waiting for nothing.

its not that im giving up but rather accepting that there are things that cannot be. and sometimes you have to stop loving the most important person in your life not because the spark is gone, but because the person is unintentionally making you feel worthless no matter how much we like and care for a person, if we are uncertain of our position, there will be a point when the only thing certain is to give up

i just have to save my heart for someone that's worth fighting for

i would never expect i would never aasume and never demand just let it be. because if its meant to be it will happen the way things to be.

...but at the and of the road i ASK MY SELF why am i doing this? do i really love him? and i just realize i DONT love him anymore im doing this with

one simple reason NANHIHINAYANG LANG PALA AKO (grin)

"lyn2 forget about your investment and time wasted if thats the only reason" hehehehe

its time to stop holding on to the people i've lost and start turning to one i have right now

losing someone doesn't hurt you the most. seeing someone you love, loves someone else's hurt you the most.

its hard to forget someone whom youve imagined spending life forever with.but i need to let go a special person i used to keep,mainly because he also

need to find that someone i cant be anymore.

i have to move forward, all i can do is to accept that it happend learn from it and move on!

i have let go of the things that can no longer be fixed because if i pushed to try to put them back,things will only get worst. holding on is brave but

sometimes moving-on makes you even tougher

moving on isn't easy...but many people have done it, so i know i can do it

its time to stop holding on to the people i've lost and start turning to one i have right now

losing someone doesn't hurt you the most. seeing someone you love, loves someone else's hurt you the most.

its hard to forget someone whom youve imagined spending life forever with.but i need to let go a special person i used to keep,mainly because he also need to find that someone i cant be anymore.

i have to move forward, all i can do is to accept that it happend learn from it and move on!

i have let go of the things that can no longer be fixed because if i pushed to try to put them back,things will only get worst. holding on is brave but

sometimes moving-on makes you even tougher

moving on isn't easy...but many people have done it, so i know i can do it

in one single lie you ruin my life

why did it happen that way

because not all mistakes can be forgiven with a simple word "sorry"

i was upset not because you lied im upset because i cant trust you anymore

you never showed that you were scared of losing me.

you always treat me as your option,as your last choice you never treat me as you priority.

just because im here for you all the time,doesn't mean you can take me for granted

i get tired of hearing broken promises, saying sorry and all the hurtings.

so tired to be too possesive its the side-effect of loving too much and receiving too little.

you never learn to value the person who loves you so much.

tired of giving second chances...

how many second chance you need to start treating me right?

ITS TOO LATE TO ASK... (this blog is worthless crap!)

NOTHING

every time you ask what's wrong i only say "NOTHING"

because of privacy or personal space,
or maybe sometimes i really don't know what wrong,
or sometimes i don't want to make my feeling worse,
sometimes i don't want you to worry bout me (just concentrate your review),
sometimes its obvious its all about you,
or i just don't want to talk about it... but most reason why i say nothing

its because I'm tired hearing the lie "it'll be alright"

1 year old draft from my old email add :D

if you notice i haven't email you for a month.
if you notice i haven't buzz you for a week.
if you notice i haven't texted you for a days.
if notice i dont answer your phone calls.
if you notice i change my # without notifying you.
its not because i dont care anymore...


ITS BECAUSE YOU PUSHED ME AWAY.

and if you notice i change the way i treat you...because you also change the way you treat me ;D

lesson

a true soul mate is a person who can change your life.
a true soul mate is probably the most important person you'll ever meet.
but to live with a soul mate forever is too painful.
soul mate come into your life just to reveal another layer of yourself to you. and then they leave.
but anyway i can manage to say "GOD THANK YOU"

note: never wish to meet your soul mate

letter i made last march

dear lyn2,

don't give up okay?

i know you've been hurt, i know how it feels.
believe me, I do. but the feeling will pass.
the tears will stop falling, your heart will heal itself.
i promise you it will, so hold on and don't let go.
don't lose hope.
i promise you will find someone who will treat you the right way.
the way he never did.
someone who will never ever leave you the way he did.
he'll be worth the wait, so hang in there because i love you.
and i want you to be happy.


love and care,
LYN-LYN

thats why they call me T-O-B-O-L

I'm a kind of girl who rarely express my true feelings.
who don't show how i love and care to a person.
I'm not a supportive lover who would always say "suportahan kita"
I'm not used to say "i agree with you" because i love arguments.
I'm not a sweet lover who would always say "i love you" and "i miss you"
i hate cuddling moments because if we are alone i love to show my abilities and techniques i learn thru watching wrestling hehe
I'm vain! don't you know the other side of me "bangaw" but i only show it to my love one :D

john Lloyd (not his true name) would always say... your not sweet, your a hardheaded person, stubborn, childish and he always say this word"aralagyamon" but still i love you.

at the early part of relationship i want to show my worst attitude so i would know if he really deserve my BEST.

that's the best way i would know if really love me. if he can handle my worst then he really deserve my best. he should love my worst first before loving my best.

time could tell when to show my good side (hmmm wait! do i have good side?) but im hoping if i show him my good side hope he wont take me for granted just like what happen before (worried) (nail biting)

but then again its not a guarantee that if he deserve your best then that is your Mr. right guy. why?

look at me! my experience was the best example =P

if you guys love him/her because of all the positive traits he/she show then you really don't love him/her.

you don’t have to be perfect to let somebody love you, the way you wanted
to be loved. Always remember showing your worst attitude is the most perfect way
to know if really love you. ;)