InSoMia

i cant sleep but with my distrustful eye...
i feel the cold of the wind,

the leaves rustle,

cricket noise,

lizard on our ceiling,

dogs barking...


so i choose to stay awake, its about 3:45am but still i cant sleep....

In a TigHt SpOt

march 30,09
9:37pm

here i am again crying.hate this feeling so weird being all alone. hate this feeling of fears.having no strenght to face.feels like that my hope is gone. i wanted to scream to ask the world WHY SHOULD I BE THE ONE TO SUFFER ALL THIS BURDEN???? it's really peircing me.

other people says you must experience being a looser,

to fail,

to get broken in able to grow and get matured.

GOD i cant handle this pain anymore!