Saturday, February 6, 2010

HUMANAP KA NG PANGIT AT IBIGIN MO TUNAY

sabi ni ANDREW E. "humanap ka ng pangit at ibigin mo tunay" pero anak ng pitong tupa naghanap nga ako ng pangit nakuha parin ako lokohin!

Friday, February 5, 2010

CHEATING (lies) BOYFRIEND

this topic has to bring up some memories that had better been left buried somewhere

Okay so I am with this guy who has done everything to hurt me in the past and even until now.

my boyfriend cheated on me several times and most of them i just learned after some time through friends and events. i gave him all the chances he wanted but still, he kept on cheating on me until i came to this point in my life that im so tired and so exhausted (june 2009) dahil pagod narin ako kakaasa sa pag babago ng relationship at bogbog na bogbog narin puso ko.

kung kaya ko lang masulat lahat ng traumatic experience ko simula sa 8 months palang kami he was cheating on me hangang sa mga kasinungalingan ng naging longdistance kami hangang sa ngsama kami and i thought hangang doon na yun lahat ng kasinungalingan. Nung umalis cxa marami pa pala kasinungalingan. pagod na ako kakabigay ng chance pagod na ako kaka asa pagod na ako masaktan pagod na pagod na pagod na ako if he love me bakit kailangan ko pa masaktan? ok lang sana if he hurt me once pero yung paulit ulit ang hirap i-justify.


kahit nag eeffort na cxa ng bongga pinupuno na nya lahat ng pagkukulang before lahat ng mali tinatama na niya. yung sasabihin nya sayo honest na cxa yung di na nya gagawin lahat ng mali niya pero dahil sa ilang beses ko na yan narinig halos wala na ako mapaglagyan ng trust dahil puno na ito ng pain.

i miss the feeling na may minamahal at yung feeling na minamahal.

Thursday, February 4, 2010

unhealthy relationship

trust and communication is important in long distance relationship

pero pano kung yung trust tinangal na nya sa akin and to stop communicating is the only way to save our relationship?

he always ask me bakit ba hindi na ako TALK ng TALK ng TALK sa phone.
actuly sinagot ko na tanong na ito before pero asual tinanong parin nya nahalata tuloy di cxa nakikinig hahaha.

ayaw ko magkwento kasi naman i know he's not that interested to listen my updates. ayaw ko magtanong una bakit may reason pa ba para maniwala sa sagot nya? pangalawa baka kasinungalingan lang isagot nya mas maganda hindi magtanong so that he wont tell lies. dahil naman sa akin nakakapag sinungaling cxa so i stop asking. sa conversation ako lang nman ang talk ng talk ng talk ngayon naka mute ako wala kami mapag usapan. labo noh? ito nalang kc natitira ko strategy if it wont work i have no regrets god knows ginawa ko lahat just to save this relationship. ;) (ok lang hindi naman ako yung nagkamali) =P

the pain is piercing me inside....

i have to run and hide because i want to fix my emotions.

once cheat always cheat

i dont belive on this...
people change when they want to... (take it from me) ;)
once you found your true love you wont look for another one and you cant afford to do things na alam mo pwede mawala mahal mo.

if your boyfriend/girlfriend cheat, it means he/she dont value your relationship and YOU.

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME I SAY "I LOVE YOU"

Learn to Let go of the thing that hurts you even if it makes you happy.
Don't wait for the day that you'll only feel pain and your joy has left you.
Dont wait for the day na wala kana maalala happy moments sa kanya kasi lahat ng maalala mo yung kasinungalungan ginawa niya.
Dont wait for the time na pagmaisip mo cya lagi kalang maiiyak hindi dahil sa miss mo cxa kundi dahil he's like a pain in your ass!
Dont wait for the time na pag na-ikwekwekwento mo cxa sa kaibigan mo wala ka makwento maganda tungkol sa kanya kundi yung lahat ng katarantaduhan ginawa nya.
Dont wait for the day na wala kana mapaglagyan ng TRUST and LOVE niya sa puso mo dahil sa puno na ito ng PAIN.
Dont wait for the time that you cant even say I LOVE YOU to the person who hurt you so much.

i still remember the day when he ask me if i miss him... but i just smile yung totoo eto dapat sagot ko (ehhh para ka nga nightmare na gusto i alis sa isip ko kasi everytime i think of you naiiyak ako dahil lahat ng maalala ko ay yung katarantaduhan ginawa mo!!! ni wala na ako maalala happy moments sayo)

is my boyfriend a chronic liar?

A chronic liar is someone who lies when there is no reason to lie – lying becomes a habitual response.

WOULD YOU STILL MARRY YOUR CHEATING BOYFRIEND???????????/

definetelly not. why i should keep him if he already cheating me?

I would not marry a cheating boyfriend, I would leave him for good because in my eyes there is nothing to justify him cheating on me. I would be so hurt and I wouldn't want to be hurt like that ever again, so it would be time for me to move on.

WOULD YOU STILL MARRY YOUR CHEATING BOYFRIEND???????????/

definetelly not. why i should keep him if he already cheating me?

I would not marry a cheating boyfriend, I would leave him for good because in my eyes there is nothing to justify him cheating on me. I would be so hurt and I wouldn't want to be hurt like that ever again, so it would be time for me to move on.

Monday, February 1, 2010

wala ako ginawa ngayun kundi panoorin lang video clip nina paul jake and girlfriend nya denise. nakakainlove at nakaka ingit makikita mo inlove talaga isat-isa. nakakaingit kasi konti nalang lalaki natitira sa mundo may ugali ganyan.

just thinking a lot... bakit kailangn ko maingit?

.... di ko pa ata nahahanap si mr. right guy

20 make - 80 break

LET ME GO...
AND SET ME FREE...