I DONT WANT TO GROW OLD WITH YOU...

cause i dont see myself being happy with you.
cause i dont trust you...and will never trust you.
just want to expect something worst.
and just want to set in my mind that you would always cheat and cheat and cheat.
you told me that you would never do those things you did in your past relationship.
that's a bunch of bull!

enough that i wont expect anything. dont want this relationship to grow. after all i really dont trust you... AIRHEAD!

WHY LIE???

just to give me peace of mind???
coz you dont want to hurt me?
coz you care?
though it pretty obvious you LYING!
im not that STUPID to believe in you ASSHOLE!

hate this feeling...

the feeling of being second best.
dont want to compare my self...
cause its like saying "BITTER!!!"

i feel alone right now.

got lots of friend but no one to talk, glad that i have my journal. were i can freely tell all my problems in life.
i don't have a friend that would be there for me every time i need them, glad i have GOD that would protect me.
i have family but cant feel their presence glad to have this gadgets coz I'm no longer longing for their love and care!

why would i care to those people who don't care me at all!!! SAHO!

im used being alone...