when you just wanna die...

have you ever think to commit suicide?
the most ultimate escape of your problems.
i wanted to go to sleep and never wake-up.
but it never happen...
i wanted to "end it all"
like hanging myself,but too much trouble buying rope hehe.
i love pain actually im used to live with pain but stabbing my chest or slitting my wrist things which i could not do. ewww!
i even fantasized wresting a gun from my classmate, point the gun on my head and pull the trigger. but i know he could pin me on the ground before i could pull the gun out.
then i hit upon a perfect method to overdose myself.
but what terrifies me what lies after my death.
im not afraid to go to hell.
what im afraid of when i meet god and he ask me.
"why did you take your life? i'm so disappointed in you"


GOD IF YOU REALLY LOVE ME, KILL ME RIGHT NOW!!!

you've change

Things changed...
People changed...
you change...

we used to talk for hours
and now I'm lucky to talk to you for few minutes a day.

you used to want to be with me
and now you make it seems like you're always too busy.

i remember the jokes,smile,laugh we shared.
and i doubt you remember any of that.
;)

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Many people think I’m strong because of the struggles I’ve been, the problems I’ve encountered, the pain I’ve felt. But they’re wrong ’cause inside me is a weak heart, but behind it… is a strong and big GOD. HE is bigger than the greatest need of your heart... greater than anything you can imagine.

ako ay ako

simple akong tao...
mamabaw kaligayahan ko...

sa pagkain di ako mapili
chubby at safari kuntento na ako
lalo pa sa mik2 at fishbal sa kanto

mahilig ako tumawa...
mahilig din ako magpatawa...
minsan masasabi mo para akong baliw...
hindi ako mabilis masaktan
kaya naman hindi ako mabilis magalit.
kung magalit man ako mabilis ako makalimot
ngunit meh mga bagay na malalim ang epekto,
kahit anong gawin mu di ka makalimot…

sa kaibigan hindi ako mapili
maybarkada ako addict
may barkada ako sosyal
maybarkadang kalog
may barkada ako nerd
may barkada ako matatalino at matino
may barkada ako saksakan sa kabobohan
ibat ibang klase man kaibigan ko nanatili ako ay ako...

sa emosyon di mo ako mababasa...
kung akoy galit nakatawa parin...
kung ako umaapoy sa galit tahimik lang
ehhh pano kung ako'y broken hearted???
wala lang ;)